Dayn wins!

I've been looking for ways to create more space in my life so mothering won't be as overwhelming. I've been so focused on our schedules that I've sort of overlooked a physical space for the child. I've been holding on tight to my art studio which is located next to our guest room. Dayn's had his eyes on it all along. Spaces for my creativity have been revealing themselves all around our house in this past week (the garden, the kitchen, my computer work space, the guest room, etc.). Yes, cousin M, I will gladly keep your guest room open and create a nursery in the studio.

I'm open to ideas for decoration. I'm still in the daydreaming phase as we don't know whether to make a big girl room or a baby boy nursery or anything in between.

The elephant in the room...

So, I just finished hosting my sister's baby shower last weekend. It was amazingly fun to see friends and family and to celebrate the birth of my nephew ~ due date: 6/17/08. It's been interesting to hear some of the comments made about my own fertility journey. I also know it's not polite to ask someone why they're not pregnant and their younger sister is, so I'll try to alleviate some discomfort.

Dayn and I originally planned to start our family by adopting a child. Through time, we got a little off course. We did "try" to get pregnant off and on for about 2 years. It didn't happen, so we began to look at our options. Fertility treatments are out of the question for both of us. Now that I'm 35 years old, I feel more focused on being a Mom compared to focused on carrying a child. Adoption just makes sense for us. Biological makes sense for my sister and her husband. We're both on different paths to motherhood and I am truly 100% excited that we get to share the journey into raising children very soon.

I'm also at peace that we may not be able to produce a biological child. I have faith that my need to mother matches the need of my future children to be mothered. This can happen so many different ways and I'm looking forward to seeing how it all unfolds.

I hope this helps answer any fertility questions that you may be uncomfortable asking. If not, consider this blog as an invitation to ask me uncomfortable questions. It takes a village to raise a child and I want my village to be as open, loving and receptive as possible!

With Love, Michelle

In the meantime...

...a beautiful title by Iyanla Vanzant and a great reminder from my girl Rebekah. That's where we are right now: living in our "meantime." Here are a few photos of what's kept us busy during our gestation period ~

celebrating our girl Iyoba's 35th!

watching my beautiful sister and "little man" grow!

visiting family in San Diego!

playing a lot of golf!

We've finished First Aid/CPR--I feel a lot safer around Dayn now that he can save me from choking. We'll turn all of our paperwork in this Saturday to then be given a caseworker. Next step: home study!

Happy Spring!